I was sitting in class last week and was asked to read the following scripture. I read a couple words and busted in to tears!
"Through the prophet Ezekiel, the Lord declared, "A new heart...will I give you, a new spirit will I put within you: and will take away the stony heart out of your flesh" (Ezekiel 36:26) (Addiction Recovery Program,LDS Family Services Manual).
My God, He will do this for me. I don't have to carry this thing around any longer. I can move forward in my journey and receive all the blessings that are in store for me.
Hope, is a word that I struggle with. Faith is something that I many times have claimed I did not have. I have begun to feed my faith, practice my faith, I have taken LEAPS of faith. Here I am - I am finally believing that there is HOPE for me in this new life.
I am seriously amazed at how quickly I have been able to progress in my venture now that I have given in. I have made changes, drastic changes and I am about to make one more change. Is it scary? If it wasn't scary I wouldn't have waited 11 years give or take. I have HOPE that this is all worth it.
I have to keep working toward my return.
Michelle,
ReplyDeleteI can understand you on this one completely. I can remember when my heart broke in high school when a friend of mine died in a car accident and then it wasn't till years later after I had kept searching and searching and searching for some "one" person to complete me and heal completely, not put a bandage on my broken heart that I realized (with the help of others of course) that it's too much of an expectation to put on another human and there comes a point when it's only between you and God. Then from there you can finally then be open again. Carry an acceptance and flow more easily through life.
That's my perspective...I guess I mostly just want you to know that I support you and to keep trucking along and as long as each moment, each day you keep making progress it's not too late! :)
Lots of love